Another trip around the sun.

Life as it's learned (with no guarantees of grammatical perfection) with my hubs, baby girl, and pups in our home of North Carolina.

“Be with someone who you don’t have to hide from, in any way. Whether it’s your morning face before you’ve put any make up on, an embarrassing story about something that happened on your way home, or an ambition you’ve had since you were six years old… make sure you end up with someone who listens to and accepts all of it, and still loves you. A person you can tell your whole life to is a person worth spending a life with.”

– (via sincerely-elenaa)

This is an impossible love. A love that’s instant, unconditional, everlasting, and above all else…selfless. So very impossible, but happening to me every single day.

This is an impossible love. A love that’s instant, unconditional, everlasting, and above all else…selfless. So very impossible, but happening to me every single day.

FREEZE! Put your hands where I can see ‘em. #sleepingbeauty #norajane

FREEZE! Put your hands where I can see ‘em. #sleepingbeauty #norajane

Yesterday I finally had a moment while Nora was snoozing to upload some long over due photos of the day she came into our lives. I had my camera beside me in the delivery room when the nurse came in and said, “It’s go time.” She was a great motivator and told Matt, “Dad, get over here. It’s time to push.” So the clock time reflects when the prep time began and at 2:10pm she was here. Matt was sitting and waiting all morning for the time to come to push. I was worried all along how he’d handle the delivery part of this equation. But he exceeded all expectations and took it like a champ. He put Nora’s first diaper on her and finally I was able to hold her. Oh how she cried! But then her crying quickly faded to a whimper, and then she was calm as I held her close to my chest. 

After almost two days of contractions, my fatigue and discomfort disappeared and I was unable to stop gazing at this perfect bundle of flesh and bone. How different our lives were the day before after having been sent home from the hospital with contractions…only to come back less than 12 hours later. 

Cannot believe this child is already 5.5 weeks old! I cry when I think about returning to work and missing all of our time together. My maternity leave has flown by and while some days are really hard without Matt here, it feels like a dream having this gorgeous little girl with big blue eyes staring and smiling at me. 

Time slow down.

First Day of my Life.

Life as we know it has changed. We welcomed our healthy and cuddly baby girl, Nora Jane, into this world June 9th at 2:10pm. A beautiful 8 pounds 11 ounces and 21 inches long, her father was the first to diaper her and she immediately calmed from her quivering lip cry upon laying across my chest.

She was a beauty even while crying and even while still slightly the same shade of an Easter egg. No denying whom her father is even at 5 minutes old. Evidence of him in her small face: two dimples in each cheek, pouty and plump lips, and round nose. Her eyes may belong to me…we shall see as she becomes a little older, but for now I claim they’re mine.

Life as it once was is already a blur to me. Even though its only been 2 weeks since we headed to the hospital from all day contractions, it’s amazing how everything else seems to fade away. I’m almost accustomed to the fatigue and 4am feedings and diaper changes; it’s almost alleviated with a short midday nap with my little one…although its hard to sleep because all I long to do is stare at her.

I can already tell she’s changing daily and it breaks my heart. Of course I want my child to grow and to flourish into the person she is intended to be, but at the same time it’s all so bittersweet to watch it unfold from one day to the next—knowing she’ll never be that young again. It’ll be even harder once I go back to work and our time together is even less.

She’s asleep on my chest right now, intermittently smiling. And I wonder what she dreams about. She’s such a wonderful baby, I hope that her sleep is always this peaceful and serene.

Nora has brought such joy to our hearts and we cannot fathom our lives without her.